But it is hard to admit that I will never understand. 

"God is not what you imagine or what you think you understand. If you understand you have failed." - Saint Augustine.

I will never understand God. Never. I have come to believe that He is bigger than a book, bigger than a religion. Maybe all the different religions are just our way of trying to reach Him. Maybe they are our way of pretending that we know Him. 

But that is a difficult situation. I will be accused of copping out. And I'm not sure that I necessarily believe in the "be a good person and that's enough" philosophy. But from what little I have seen and experienced in life, I think perhaps the best I can do is to follow van Gogh. "But I always think that the best way to know God is to love many things." 

In my dorm. Doing homework (obviously not.) Alone for once, if only for a few minutes. I just realized that I've fallen into that familiar trap again. 

"I can't wait until..."

Hey, Ashley! Yeah, you! This is it! This is your life, and if you don't start living soon, you're going to die. No joke. The clock it ticking, and you are wasting your life on facebook wishing for something better. Well I have news for you. Get up off your lazy  bum and go get something better. Sure Berrien Springs is not ideal, but it's where you are. And happiness is all around you. So stop looking forward to some unknown future. Enjoy this.